This title is a reflection of my current state of thought. I am definitely having trouble adjusting to my current environment and I also was struggling with this blog. I am sure that you are being flooded with so many people and how they’re adjusting to our new way of life. I wasn’t sure if me talking about my experience would be helpful – I hope you find it helpful and if you want more of an escape, there are plenty more blogs to check out here.
I am very close to my family so whenever I’m at school I constantly think about going home. I am always excited to go home but now that I am at home, indefinitely, the excitement is wearing off quickly. I get annoyed so easily and really bored as well. This experience has made me realize how fortunate I am that my biggest problem is boredom. And, I miss our campus in all its sunshine.
I’ll be honest though, this is not the type of environment where I thrive as a functioning person. Some days, I feel like I am barely functioning. I find that I don’t have a lot of motivation to do work or even pay attention in lecture.
I think the most frustrating thing for me during all of this is social media. I have deleted my social apps from my phone and hope I don’t download them again until this period of isolation is over. I am one of those people who starts to compare themselves to what they see on social media. I’m sure everyone does to a certain extent but I think I take it to the extreme. And the most frustrating thing I’ve seen lately is this notion that people is going to be their most productive selves during quarantine. I’ll let you in on a little secret – you don’t have to be productive.
The world itself has essentially stopped everything and it is okay for you to stop too. If you have to learn a new skill, do it. But don’t put pressure on yourself to come out of this time period being the best version of yourself. My goal during this period is just to go to my classes and do my homework. My focus is to stay safe and enjoy the time that I have with my family. Will I be able to do both? To a certain extent. Will I be able to read every book on my list and finally defeat the Wizard Pig on Diddy Kong Racing? Come on, that’s just impossible.
I find that the more I write these blogs, the more they are for me and my emotional state than anything. Regardless, I hope this helped you in some way or at least gave you comfort knowing that there is someone in this situation who is more of a mess than you are.
